When you think about all the people you’re ‘friends’ with and you realise you have no one.
No one cares, no matter how much they say they do they really don’t.
Cause people can always say things to your face that make you feel like they want you around and they have an actual interest in you but then you realise when you disappear for weeks and no one calls, or when you try to speak to them and they don’t even notice you’re existence, or when you sit with a group of your friends and not one of them makes an effort to speak to you, that no one really cares at all.. And they never have.
Im sad yet again, bens fast asleep, I don’t know what to do anymore, as soon as I’m left alone with my mind everything comes flooding back and I can’t seem to stop it
The one night I spend away from Ben is our two months, :(